Bad Mood

I am PMT and woke up with the most terrible headache right at the top of my head and on my forehead. It is grey and overcast and looks like it is going to rain. I am finding life with my husband extremely difficult at the moment. He is getting ready for work now and to be honest I can't wait until he gets out of the house and I know I have peace for the next 8 hours or so.

I think that I did too much yesterday. I had ordered a few things mail order and they all arrived on the same day. On top of that my husband spent all of last year working in Switzerland and so he had all the stuff he took out there shipped home and that arrived yesterday too. My dining room likes a storage depot. My utility room is full of bags and carriers. The front vestibule is full of bags and boxes for the charity shop. Wherever I go there are bundles of crap awaiting sorting out, which I am just unable to do.

My window cleaner also promised he would come yesterday about 9.30 in the morning. As I need to lie down after my shower I had to get up about 6.30 a.m. to accommodate this. I was OK about that because I really need the insides of my windows cleaned. He did not show u til 12.30. What is wrong with people? Why make an arrangement with people then think it's OK to show up THREE HOURS LATE? It's rude and disrespectful. I am now looking for a new window cleaner.

I find all of this very, very frustrating and it is making me feel most unspiritual! I just want to sit here today and watch junk TV and not talk to anyone. It would be OK if I knew the mess would be sorted out but my husband is not like that. One something has found a "place" that I do not complain about immediately he seems to take that as a sign it can stay there indefinitely. Invariably I have to have a total flip out about it (usually after it has been lying there for about 3 weeks) before he is jolted in to action. Generally the behaviour then is to move the items from the visible dumping area to a non-visible dumbing area (aka a cupboard). This makes me even more furious because then when I need something out of the cupboard I can't get it because it's jam packed with his *****.

On top of that I have been cooking and following a special dairy and gluten free diet for him for about 8 years. A fortnight ago (on the advice of his nuritionist) it is all change. He now wants the Specific Carbohydrate Diet. This is a lot of work and he does not seem to understand that at the moment I NEED peace, calm and a routine. I don't know whether I am coming or going in the kitchen. What he is deciding to eat today or not.

In short, I feel overwhelmed, overloaded and want to check out of life. So sod him and his diet and his mess. I am having nothing to do with it. And if the mess all over the house is dealt with by the end of the weekend I'll pay someone to come and do a house clearance.

I think the grounding remedy the homeopath gave me is definitely working.

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